goodbye world

Five weeks after


Melanie P.O.V

Ouch! It's seriously hurt. The blood flowing from my wrist. The sharp blade is covered in my red blood. It will not be long before my sheet has been just a little red and it starts already dizzy for me. I lie down and slowly begins to cry. Is it the right decision, it's really what I want? But how will it all go? I have not him with me as I love and adore, the one who is the most amazing and beautiful of them all, the one I hst learned all about loving. How can I live without? I close my eyes. I'm starting to doze and started to move from awareness. I see it all for me, all those I hurt. My unborn child My husband, my best friend Rhonda Rickman is godmother to my unborn daughter, I dissemble me how my daughter wanted to have come to looked so small and delicate nose, and the cute round cheeks. Nikolai black hair, my blue eyes, I laugh one last time. So aer my stomach, and whispers I'm so sorry sweetie, Mommy just can not anymore. Took some of the pills for depression I got from my doctor has written a letter to all. I can not do it without Nikolai and all the bills do not improve. I close my eyes, enjoying the peaceful moment, no words being said, everything takes place in silence, even though I know what I think. I press my nose into the teddy bear from my daughter's bed, sniffs the total force her scent in me. It is a fragrance I will stick with indtl I come across on the other hand, a scent that I can always smells. It is just equal to her
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