Speak

Alex Hamato was sitting on the sofa at Grimmauld Place she had shared with Chris as she shared with Harry, she stares blankly into space. She was slight that Harry was back, but she just could not relax. Thoughts invade her mind, thoughts about her relationship with Harry and how she thought he was dead so she had written to him. Although she had given people a opsag now, there was a part of her was still angry that they had not told her anything about what was going on.

cemetery a few months earlier, and Cedric's lifeless eyes. If only she had been a little bit faster ... if only she had not been on the ground, behind the tombstone when Cedric collapse ...

"Alex?"

Alex jumped out of her skin when she heard a voice very close to her. Turning around so she Masami Nanbade one of her parents' friends.

"I'm sorry I scared you," said Masami gently. "I was just wondering if I could sit next to you. You look like you need company."

Alex hesitated. "Of course, Doctor," she said at last. She hoped, however, that she would not get her to talk about Cedric or any ofthe other old events.

"Remember, alex, I am no longer doctor," said Masami with a small smile. "You can call me Masami now."

"Uh ... okay, Masami," said Alex uncertain. "How are you?"

"I just came from the hospital. Full moon was a few days ago, but my twin sister Keith are doing well and have a visit from his betrothed Richard," said Masami quiet.

"That's good," said Alex, and they went back to the silence, both stewing in their own thoughts.

Finally, the silence was broken by Masami when she put a hand on Alexs shoulder. "Alex, you look worried," said she worried. "What are you thinking?"

"Nothing," said Alex automatically, but Masami could instantly see that she was lying. Her emerald-blue eyes seemed much more drab and haunted than they had been two years ago when Cassandra and Lee talked about her case.

"We both know that's not true, alex," said Masami gently. "I know you may not want to talk about it, but I've experienced before that talk helps."

"Why?" asked Alex, her 1982 to the summer of 1993, "explained Masami slowly," I worked in the Muggle world as a psychotherapist. It worked for me, because as you know, believe Muggles only my twin sister state exists only in fairy tales. I have found out many people feel better after they have talked about their problems. Believe me, it was a hard concept for me to understand, too. After my little brother Jesse died, and my best friend Aesha Call was sent to Azkaban for his death, I didn 't think I could ever go on. But I found out, to help other people have helped me as well. "

Alex said nothing, and it got Masamis heart to burst when she saw Alexs eyes become even more haunted. It was so wrong, a girl of nearly fifteen years should not look like this yet. She had seen too much.

So said Alex in an almost inaudible whisper, "I could not save them."

"Are you talking about Cedric or Harry?" asked Masami.

"Both," said Alex, she shake her head so her black brow hair covering her eyes, it was what Masami knew was deep shame. "I tried ... but it all happened too fast."

"Alex, it's not your responsibility to save everyone," said Masami, her hand was still on Alexs shoulder. "We all know that you did your best, but in this situation there was simply nothing you can do."

"But I was so stupid," shouted Alex as her voice begins to rise. "As soon as we arrived to the cemetery I knew something was wrong. I should have gotten us off faster, but ... it was just too fast. My scars began to hurt and when Harry asked me to save me ... " She took a deep, shuddering breath, "... and next thing I knew I was on the ground in pain. Thereafter, Cedric, dead And I could not do anything, it was my fault, all my fault even it that Harry had to spend three days in hell! "

And before she knew it, her eyes filled with tears and she blinked them back angrily. But to her total humiliation, so Masami it.

"Alex, it's okay," she said as she put a comforting arm around the applicants teenager. "It's okay to show her feelings. I'm going to be here through it all. Just give slip, alex, you can not keep this up forever."

alex lost control. It was as if a dam, get crushed in her, and she began to sob, all the guilt and grief and frustration she felt in recent months, weeks came in a flood of tears. Masami held her close to him, cursed himself for not being there for her best friend's daughter while she was growing up, and not being able to stop this terrible tragedy that had occurred. She was going to ask if she should write to the kitty or Hailey and talk about Alex when she felt Alexs shoulders shaking with grief because of a seventeen year old boy whose life was brutally interrupted and her best friend she had to do without for three days.

When Alex had cried out Hoarse, she looked up into Masami's face and then only understanding that, instead of disgust, her best grandfather or her old nanny Joyce always showed when she succumbed to tears.

"Are you feeling better now?" she asked gently.

"Y-yeah," stammered alex, with a sobbing voice and wiped his eyes with his sleeve. "Thank you, D-R-Masami."

Masami smiled softly at the girl. "No problem, Alex," she said quietly. "Now, listen to me., I know it's going to take a while for you but believe me when I assure you, to Cedric's death was not your fault everyone is scared to death to some extent," said Masamios know what they can expect when it hits us. But I am sure that Cedric is doing well now that he is not afraid anymore. alex, you are a wonderful, selfless, courageous young woman to do all the things you've done. I'm sure your parents would be extremely proud of you, as your godfather and all of us are. "

"Really?" Asked Alex, a glimmer of hope shines in her emerald-blue eyes.

"I speak nothing but the truth," reassured Masami her. "You stand in front of your fears and tackle them head on. You are a much, much better woman than I could ever hope to be."

"That's not true!" exclaimed Alex, shocked. "You're a good person, too, and right now the best psychologist I have had."

Masami smiled at her, and hoped it conveyed all the gratitude she felt. "Thank you," she said, patting Alexs shoulder gently. "Now, are you ready for some lunch?"

"Okay," said Alex, and with a heart that was lighter than it had been for a long time, she went and Masami went out of the room to go to where some delicious sandwiches and all their other friends were waiting.